So I've been thinking a lot about the end of the year (Yay, we're still alive) and what I've accomplished this year. Looking back on it, I think it is safe to say that I am definitely not the same person, and you know what I am okay with that. I am actually very proud of the ways that I have changed. To summarize in not so many words the main thing that I have learned is to "lighten up". I am not so uptight and paranoid about every little thing that happens. And I guess I would have to thank my suitemates for this. They are absolutely insane, but I love them and they have definitely grown on me since August.
There are so many things that I've done this year that I would of probably said I would of never done last year. I've grown to be more outspoken, courageous, silly, and adventurous. All of these things I probably wouldn't of became if it weren't for my suitemates. Here's a list of things that would of been unordinary for me last year.
1) Wearing more in-style and form-fitting clothes.
-Reason: Cheerleading has literally taken over my life, and I love it! But because we are working so hard since August I
have successfully lost 15 pounds. :)
-Reason: I've been working as much as I can, I've been indulging here and there and buying myself a few nice things now
and again and it pays off.
Outcome: I am more comfortable with my body, and more confident.
There are so many things that I've done this year that I would of probably said I would of never done last year. I've grown to be more outspoken, courageous, silly, and adventurous. All of these things I probably wouldn't of became if it weren't for my suitemates. Here's a list of things that would of been unordinary for me last year.
1) Wearing more in-style and form-fitting clothes.
-Reason: Cheerleading has literally taken over my life, and I love it! But because we are working so hard since August I
have successfully lost 15 pounds. :)
-Reason: I've been working as much as I can, I've been indulging here and there and buying myself a few nice things now
and again and it pays off.
Outcome: I am more comfortable with my body, and more confident.
2) It's okay to be silly and obnoxious sometimes
-Reason: Living with my suitemates have made almost everything in my life into a laugh. Her, Airaka and I have been on some crazy adventures. Some more sober than others, but there is literally never a dull moment. Living with them has made me realize that motto, "if you can't beat them, join them." Yelling at them to stop their insanities is too much work, so I just join in and hope that we don't get into trouble. haha.
Adventures that we've been through
-Reason: Living with my suitemates have made almost everything in my life into a laugh. Her, Airaka and I have been on some crazy adventures. Some more sober than others, but there is literally never a dull moment. Living with them has made me realize that motto, "if you can't beat them, join them." Yelling at them to stop their insanities is too much work, so I just join in and hope that we don't get into trouble. haha.
Adventures that we've been through
- Pranks
- Hookah
- "Girls Nights" - Ask if you really want to know
- Obsessing over Childish stuff
3) Taking Risks
I don't have any pictures of this, but I have definitely this year learned that if you don't try, you'll never know. Obviously, I'm not the greatest in the guy department, but this year I've very much taken a few steps. About a month or so ago, I asked out a guy to breakfast in person for the first time. I was nervous to the bone, but I did it. It didn't go quite as I had planned, but I am very much proud of myself. It sort of gave me the confidence to talk to other guys and be more comfortable, especially with someone else that I have my eye on ;). Haha. Though I'm not looking for nothing right now anyways, I just like to look. haha. Honestly, though I couldn't be anymore happier with how my progress has come in this department.
Some other risks I've taken that I will just simply mention:
I don't have any pictures of this, but I have definitely this year learned that if you don't try, you'll never know. Obviously, I'm not the greatest in the guy department, but this year I've very much taken a few steps. About a month or so ago, I asked out a guy to breakfast in person for the first time. I was nervous to the bone, but I did it. It didn't go quite as I had planned, but I am very much proud of myself. It sort of gave me the confidence to talk to other guys and be more comfortable, especially with someone else that I have my eye on ;). Haha. Though I'm not looking for nothing right now anyways, I just like to look. haha. Honestly, though I couldn't be anymore happier with how my progress has come in this department.
Some other risks I've taken that I will just simply mention:
- Slacking a little on my academics (This really isn't a good thing, but I've learned to ease up on the stress of school. During finals week I managed to turn a final in late, and not turn a paper in for a class. I still got an A in both of these classes, but I would of NEVER of done this before)
- Driving outside of Westerville. (I actually drove on 270, and went to Athens. -- I have serious driving anxiety and this was a big deal for me)
- Confronting Others (If and when someone would mouth off to me or make a smart remark I would normally just take it and be quiet. Well now that is for sure not the case. IF you yell at me or speak rudely I will tell you how I feel and yell right back)
- Drinking with friends (My paranoia is no more
So maybe I'm not changing in the best ways society would seem fit, but in my opinion I am changing in the best ways for myself. I am really starting to LIVE A LITTLE. I know when to be serious during certain situations, but I also know when its appropriate and blow some steam and be stupid with my friends. And with these changes I am happy with myself and who I am becoming. So 2012 has been a good year to me and hope the new year is gonna be great!
Merry Christmas everyone thanks for reading. :)
-Kala
Merry Christmas everyone thanks for reading. :)
-Kala